Aug 16, 2012  •  In Claire, Motherhood, Personal

My Own Version of Hell

I once read a book which depicted hell as being different for each and every person. According to the author, every individual has a special version of hell specifically designed around his/her deepest fears and anxieties. I couldn’t help but wonder what my customized hell would be like. And as I ran down my list […]

Aug 15, 2012  •  In Aerin, Claire, Motherhood, Personal

Strangers from the Past, Stories for the Future

One of the many side effects I experience from antidepressants is vivid dreams. I remember having some crazy dreams the last time I was on meds, and this time is no different. Luckily, the dreams are hardly ever terrifying. Excitement and thrills? Sure. Like the one I had recently about ancient Egyptian warriors taking over […]

Aug 9, 2012  •  In Depression, Personal

Medicated, and Uninspired

“Let’s see…I see that you’re now on 450mg of Wellbutrin and 40mg of Prozac. How are you feeling?” “Much better. I’m still not quite where I would like to be, but I am crying less, smiling more, and I haven’t had a breakdown in over a month. I do, have a question though…” “Yes?” “I […]

Jul 31, 2012  •  In Aerin, Baby, Claire, Motherhood, Parenting, Personal

Night and Day

This past weekend — at just shy of 9 months of age — Aerin finally sprouted her first two teeth. As I proudly ran my finger over Aerin’s new incisors (and got repeatedly bitten in the process, as having her mother’s finger shoved in her mouth is something that she obviously does not like), I […]

Jul 9, 2012  •  In Aerin, Claire, Personal, Travel

Our Family’s First Trip to the Beach

…was a big fat FAIL. This past Saturday, J and I loaded up the car, strapped both girls into their car seats with me sitting uncomfortably between them, and drove a little over an hour to Long Island for a day at the beach with family and friends. I was admittedly uncomfortable with the idea […]

Jul 5, 2012  •  In Claire, Comang, Personal

An Update on Comang

Four months ago, J and I made the difficult decision to give away Comang. If you can recall, I had found a very nice family to take him in and give him a loving home. I am happy to say that they have continued to send me updates and pictures, and still thank us profusely […]

Jun 28, 2012  •  In Career, Korean, Personal

Employer Loyalty: Cultural or Generational?

J has been offered a prestigious position at a new company. 🙂 You don’t know how stinkin’ proud I am — he always busts his behind at work to provide for our family, and he is finally being recognized for his dedication and hard work. He gave his two weeks notice yesterday, and will be […]

Jun 25, 2012  •  In Depression, Personal

Experimenting with Drugs

One of the most frustrating factors in dealing with depression — at least for me — is finding the best medication (or combination of meds) for yourself. Back in my early twenties, I had tried various meds before finding the combination that worked best for me: Prozac and Wellbutrin. This time around, since it had […]