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Kicked in the Chest

Yesterday, I experienced one of the deepest disappointments in my experience of motherhood thus far. Yesterday, Claire got physically violent toward her younger sister. Aerin was trying to climb onto Claire's chair — the seat she practically considers to be her throne — and Claire expectedly became upset. She then proceeded to KICK Aerin. It wasn't so bad. It was more of a slow shove with the foot than an actual kick, and I was right behind Aerin so she fell into my lap. Aerin seemed unfazed by the event and went about as if nothing had happened. But while the kick/shove did not cause any physical harm to my younger daughter, I felt as if I had been kicked in the chest. J and I immediately...

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The Human Mind Can Be a Disgusting Place

One of the most memorable novels I have ever read is American Psycho by Brett Easton Ellis. (And in case you weren't aware, yes the movie is based on the book.) While the book is meant as a satire of 1980s American materialism, greed, and superficiality, the reader cannot help but be horrified — and transfixed! — by the narrator's description of his murders and the thought process that goes behind them. It's actually a great read for those who do not easily get queasy, or can appreciate genius in its various forms. When I read the book for the very first time back in my early twenties, I remember thinking that the author must have one sick mind to even IMAGINE these...

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Sisters, Month 9

My mother tells me that when my sister was born, everyone predicted that we would become best friends because we were so close in age (we're 22 months apart). However, that turned out to be not the case because our personalities were soooo different. While we get along fine now, my sister and I didn't have the best relationship growing up. If we weren't fighting, we were ignoring each other, or doing completely different activities. In fact, we didn't begin to really talk to each other — by this, I mean engaging in meaningful conversations and confiding in each other — until we were both in our mid-twenties. My mother recently observed that Claire and Aerin also seem to have completely different personalities,...

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