Dear Baby,

Yesterday, when I entered my estimated due date (according to Fertility Friend, it is October 7) into BabyCenter, you were 3 weeks old.

So boy was I surprised to log in this morning to see that you are now at 4 weeks!

So far you have been good to me. Aside from some queasiness and fatigue, I have been having no symptoms at all. (You might want to ask your father to see if I’ve been extra moody, though.)

I am so excited you are here — I want to shout it from the rooftops! But I am also scared. So, so scared. I don’t know if I can handle losing another baby. Losing your older sister was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. There is still not a day that goes by that I do not think about her, how I would now be 29 weeks pregnant with her.

Please stay with me, baby. Stay with me and let me help you grow. There is nothing I want more in this world than for you to be a healthy and happy child.